Saturday, January 18, 2020

Two Things: Good versus evil, and What's for Dinner

Two things:

1.  Does it feel to anyone else like there's this giant, obvious struggle in the world of good versus evil, and it feels like evil could very well win, and we're all just sitting here, holding our breath, covering our eyes and trying not to weep?  I mean, seriously, if you need Alan Dershowitz as your attorney, it's pretty much like saying, I'm guilty AF and I'm going to get off scot-free because I have money.

2.  I saw a recipe for roasted chicken in the NYT the other day, and the pre-ramble to the recipe said,
"My guess? It’s all anyone in your set will be talking about in coming days. I think you’ll want to make it tonight, or on some evening very soon. Go to!"
 That seemed really strange to me.  Like, since when does the NYT say, "Go to!"?  And I haven't heard anyone talking about the chicken, except here I am, talking about it.  But I did make it last night, and it was pretty good.  Let me know if you hear any chatter about the chicken.  It seems plausible that this is code for something.



Monday, January 13, 2020

NYR


I did so well with my NY resolution last year that I thought I'd try it again this year.  I know we're already partway through the year and you're supposed to figure these things out in a drunken moment of optimism on NYE, when you think you're gonna be and do all these things that probably won't pan out, like be healthier and get more exercise and clean up all the time, and make your bed the instant you get out of it, and keep good records of everything filed away in an orderly fashion and keep up on all the paperwork.  Even if the government sends you a notice that you're supposed to get a cat, you promptly fill out the forms and do it. (I don't think that's a real thing but I'm not really sure how people decide to get cats -- there must be some notification from someone?)

Anyway.  I've been trying to come up with a resolution that's realistic, but will actually make my life better, and it finally came to me.

I am going to have a favorite coffee mug again.  I've had favorites in the past, but they eventually break or chip and I'm forced to move on.  It's a quiet grief.  You don't tell people, 'Um, I live alone and I had this favorite coffee cup, and we used to spend mornings together, and it's gone, and I miss it.'  You say that and people are all in for getting you a cat.

A few months ago I noticed that I was down to just a couple of mugs, so I went and bought a bunch at Value Village.  None of them were ideal but they don't have any slogans or dumb jokes on them, and they aren't chipped, and they're all the proper shape to hold 12 ounces.  And yesterday, as I pulled the cobalt blue mug out of the dish drainer, I had that happy feeling, like oh yay, I get you today!  So I think I can do this.  I think I can get attached to another mug, and miss it a little on it's days off, and be super happy when I get to use it, the way you do.

Happy snow day, everyone.


Thursday, January 2, 2020

New Year, New Possibilities

Last year I made a New Year's resolution to watch more t.v.  I know, that sounds like I'm all fancy like my dog, Jasmine Cavendish-Palmer, and am too busy doing righteous important things to watch t.v., but that isn't the case at all.  I waste more time than the average human playing Sudoku and solitaire and such, and clicking links of headlines that I only read for a few paragraphs, and so on.  TV-watching is an upgrade in so many ways, but mostly it is better because it allows me to also knit because it's hands-free.  Knitting, on its own, is kind of boring -- you need a companion who talks (not just one who sheds), or a tv show.  The other thing about increasing my tv is that I could understand more conversations and references and even be able to contribute a little. 


So, I resolved to watch more tv, and lo and behold, I did it!  Go me!  I watched Mrs. Maisel and Grace & Frankie and I'm starting to watch Gray's Anatomy.   I even watched a few episodes of Trailer Park Boys which I find hilarious, but I watched one with R. and he kept looking at me and saying, really?  You like this?  And I knit more than I have since college. 

So I thought I'd resolve to write a little more in 2020.  Which doesn't take much.  More than almost nothing is just a tiny bit.  Aim low, I always say.  Anything worth doing is worth doing poorly. 

It's hard to write lately, because the big dark cloud of Trump, who may be ruler til the end of time if he gets his way.  He's a cruel stupid man who cares little about anyone else and does all that ramblefuckery that's embarrasing and terrifying.  And climate change.  It's all big and dark, and my little world has been a bit dark lately too, and mostly I try to write towards the light -- take what's happening, and turn it around and around until I can love it, and then write about that.  And it's hard to do that right now.

So I'm starting this second day of 2020 with a little diatribe about cleaning.  I just learned this thing about cleaning, like, last week, which is that you can't just do it once.  You have to be ON it all the time.  Over and over, day in, day out, you have to clean.  It's like breathing -- you can't just stop for a few days or you die.  And you also have to be fussy and careful as you go along, and try not to spill and always eat at the table and don't let the dog on the couch.  And even still, you have to CLEAN all the freaking time, and a lot of it is vacuuming which is loud and scary because one false move and you could suck up something important, something you care way more about than having a clean house, and then you either have to be all zen about it and say goodbye to that thing, and act as if having that special thing sucked up was meant to be, and there's a lesson in there somewhere.  Or you have to root around in the horrible bag of really tight dust.  How does the dust get so tight inside the vacuum?  I mean, it's like, insulation but really, really horrible. (It's been so long since I've written that I had to think about commas just then.  Where do they go when there are two "reallys"?).  Or sometimes the vacuum grabs a tiny end of yarn and in less than a second, an entire knitting project is sucked up, unraveled and wrapped around that roller thing.  Grr.

The second thing I'd like to say is that I'm offering a service of sending you your New Year's resolutions in the mail in about April.  Wouldn't that be grand?  I keep telling people about it, and saying how I achieved my goal of watching more tv, and people look away and no one so far has taken me up on it.  But it's a solid offer. 

Anyway, Happy New Year to everyone.  May this year bring some brightness and joy to all.


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